How fool I am?

Huhm... I don't know how many days it is from my graduation... I don't want to count again... Huhm... I want to count how many days to finish my target... But, it is more difficult... So, it means don't count the days...

hihihihi...

I did't write two days, right? Huhmm.. So many things happened. But, I don't remind all...

I just remember that last Friday, I was late texting my lecture, so I missed a meeting with my lecture. And now, I'm difficult to make appointment. I need his signature for preparing my graduation soon. I hope tomorrow I can make appointment. The wisdom is "if you need something, just do how the way to get that, don't wait others do that for you".

Than, I was sleeping all ningt long in Friday night... And I forgot to pray. The wisdom is "pray on time, so you will not forget".

This morning, I made my little cousin cry, because I broke his toys. So, I had to change the new one. And I found it by entering some minimarket. The wisdom is "watchout when you play with kids".

I done my TOEFL test (I hope) at course laid in Bhayangkara street. I made some stupid things like sign at "examiner" coloumn, wherease i was "examinee". And the "examiner" knew it. How it's embrassed me? The wisdom is "be careful and think when you will do something".

I was also wrong when i was in interview test. I chose the theme that i would tought about with my examiner. What film type is Twilight? I answered drama film. And I knew that it was wrong... Hohohoho. The wisdom is "don't be nervous when do something, because you can not maximize your ability".

And I hope my story below is my last fooled things...

I know something bad will happend to me if I fall in love with this guy... But, i'm not ready to deal with this bad things... I can guess it, so I'm supposed to ready!
Oh... How fool I am?
I cried for him, but I knew it don't be needed.
I wrote my status at Facebook "i know it will be happened... i know it will be hurt me... but why is it making me cry now? i should be ready for this, but i couldn't... i need to wake up! my last word for you : i'm gonna miss you, and i hope it's your best way... good luck!"
I can share all things here...
But, I'm loosing my mind now! I'm loosing my spirit... Maybe, I'm ready for loosing him, but I'm not ready for loosing his care...
He gave me signal for this bad things... Oh, I intended to confirm this signal, but the bad things come earlier...
The wisdom is "don't be number two".