REARRANGE MY LIFE

Oh my God, I wasted my time too much..

One month, I've got nothing. Hiks.. No progress for my minithesis.. My faculty cancelled my internship test..

I did nothing!

Please, show me the way to be better.. Oh, maybe.... I must rearrange my life!

Making schedule?

Yeah... Good point! But, will it be done?

I hope...

If I can't rearrange my life, I can't reach my target..

Help me, help me, help me...

All people arround me... You must help me to make sure my schedule done well.

Maybe it's example of my schedule tomorrow!

03.30 : Wake up
03.30-04.00 : Praying
04.00-04.30 : Exercising
04.30-05.00 : Sweeping
05.00-05.10 : Praying
05.10-05.30 : Taking a bath
05.30-06.00 : Breakfast
06.00-06.30 : On my way to SMA N 3 SOLO
06.30-06.40 : On my way to Tia's boarding house
06.40-08.30 : Doing nothing
08.30-08.40 : On my way to Indomart Jagalan
08.40-15.30 : Meeting with Riwis and attending event in RBI (Rumah Blogger Indonesia)
15.30-16.00 : On my way to my home
16.00-16.30 : Taking a bath and praying
16.30-17.00 : Having earlier dinner
17.00-17.30 : Take a rest
17.30-17.45 : Praying
17.45-18.30 : On my way to UNS-Mesen
18.30-20.30 : Taking course (Brevet Pajak)
20.30-21.00 : On my way to my home
21.00-21.10 : Praying
21.10-23.00 : Entry data
23.00-01.00 : Reading
01.00-03.30 : Sleeping

I hope it will be done!

Amien!

FRIENDS OR FOE

I have broken up with my boyfriend (Yudi). It happened from a week ago...

I know it will be hard for me and for him, but I think it's our best way...

Okay, he actually doesn't agree fully. But, he couldn't show the reason and his effort to vindicate this love relationship...

I think he doesn't have consistency. Why?

This week, he pushed me to remove his facebook account. How could I? I think it's not fair for us. We live together almost three years. I don't desire... How about if we become friend???

Pushing me to remove facebook account, it is mean that he wants me out of his life.. I think it shows that he agrees for breaking up. Although he said he don't want break up. But, his attitude is not same with his want...

And last night, he chated me to talk about this break up. But, he just make us in fighting... He always thought negative on me....

He said I never understand him.. But, he also never understand me... Our decisions always contrast...

What should I do????

Is it better for me to be his friends or his foe...????

I just want he also has a better life also... I can't give synergi for him to do better...

Internship's end: sad or happy????

I'm sorry to myself and all...

I couldn't write in my blog for a month.. I was busy with my internship program.. Actually, i was not too busy with the task or something, but i was busy for sleep. Yeah... Working in an office make us tired (for your informations)....

If you are not ready to do this internship, I think you can not learn anything. And you will grumble everytime... Hohoho.

Too many tasks and too many type of people and too many instructions and too many people's want... (and...and...)

But, i think internship program is a good point... It make us know how way we work based on our capability...

I'm be grateful because I got a nice place for my internship... All my friends in office are kind person.. I'm sad because i can't work together. But, i will never forget all time in this corporate...

So,I'm sad because I just had a little time to do this internship... But, i still have so many program from my faculty that must I join..

Hope me and all my friends successfull for this internship and all test that must we do...

BAKSO KAGET SOLO

Yeah, the result of BMT (read post before) is a business plan in group. And it's amazing, the best business plan in my class was my group. I done this proposal with Akbar, Fauzan, Ayom, Endi, Irla. It's unpredictable. We finished this proposal in 5 minutes before we presented.

I think Bakso Kaget Solo is nice project. Bakso in English called meatball, kaget in English called surprise. Kaget choosen because our unique meatball have so many varian inside, even there is a chilli. Hohoho.

It will give a new experience for customer.

Our yells also odd. Hohoho. We just have three row in our lyrics.
Our yells is (Sing like song "Cinta satu malam"-search 4shared)
"Bulat-bulat-bulat oh enaknya"
"Kenyal-kenyal-kenyal buatku melayang"
"Kaget-kaget-kaget buatku ketagihan"

Hoho...

And you know what? The best proposal in others class also meatball project with others way to present. And the best proposal is from my best friends Adu and Tia.

Haha...

It's a fact that people like meatball so much.
Haha...

BMT oh BMT

Today I attended Business Motivation Training. It held by Carier Development Center in my campus. It is a softskill program... It will be held in 2 days, today and tomorrow..

The goal of this program is changing mindset of college students. Mostly college students just want be a employer. So, by this program, hopefully fresh graduate students can make their own business and can give a job for others jobless.

Huhm, it's a nice program.. (I think)

Remember, I last week also attended the program like that.. Yeah, The Enterprenuership Prgoram with Mr.Budhi Hendarto.

Huhm, i don't want to compare each other. But, if there is a chance to give an opinion, i suggest to CDC to make this BMT like The Enterprenuership Program that I attended before. Because, if the practitioner or motivator become the instructure, I think it's nicer. The practitioner can be a real example. Not just a theory, like this current program.

And it's a new fact for the truth of Mr.Budhi's statement that the lecturer just give from theory side, not much lecturers that have their own business.

But, from my instructure in BMT, Mr.Amin Gunadi, I learn that if we pray and try hard, our money and success come together, altough we don't have a fixed business type.. Huhm, I have a type like Mr.Amin, I can't hang on in one business... Hohoho. But, I'll try to make it clear.

Move forward guys!

The end of this day, I feel bad....

Today, I had so many activities.... First, I attended family gathering. Huhm... I think we need a new concept for making this routine family gathering be amazing... Hoho... I love spending my time with my big family.

Second, I attended healthy walking in my neighborhood. Haha. So tired, because I do little walking. Huhm... So many doorprize there.. The funniest think, my little nephew, Adam, he cried because his doorprize was not a toys. He thought the doorprize just like the birthday prize. Haha.

Third, I attended young meeting. Oh my God, why were there just a little people??? As a chief, I were shame. Why they don't want to move forward... Is it my false as a leader or theirself? I have tried many alternative to motivate them, but they never realized how is important join in organization.

The end of this day, why I feel bad????

Is it because of my past? or Is it because of affraid for tomorrow and future?

Oh my God, I know I have many problems and many things to do. Help me to make it done well!

HOW????? (Post for 31/07/2010)

I don't know what I must to do now!

I and he tried to solve our problems. Because we can't have a meeting, we just talked by phone.
Oh my God, we never find the point of the problems. Huk... And everythings gonna be more difficult to solve.
When we talked a problem then so many others problems come.
Oh... oh... oh...

I just want we can live together, whatever our status. Just be ourself anf comfort...

Hai (Long time no post)

Hohoho... It's a week that I didn't write a post...

I'm sorry... It's not designed. Hoho.

The tragedy last week:

Friday: I went to campus... Met my best friend Adu (after she went to ShaoXing) and entry for my course... And arranged to KopiTiam (Mr.Bondan's cafe)with Adu, Dee, Putri, and Coey in that evening... Took my sister and had a lunch in chicken noodle at Pabelan... But when I wanted to KopiTiam, my sister must be bed rest at hospitl. So, I canceled my schedule to accompany him.

Saturday-Monday: I just stayed at hospital and home until my sister cured... Huhm... I love my family, so I did that, spent my time for my sister. I canceled my meeting with Yudi. I were sorry for that. Even we have any problem to solve but I can not leave my family.

Oh yeah, my sister left from hospital at Sunday's afternoon. And I refreshed my mind by attending Bengawan's event (Bengawan is blogger community). We met Mrs.Sita (from Hivos-I don't know how to spell). We hope they can donate on Bengawan's programs.

Tuesday-Wednesday: I attended a Enterprenuership Training with Mr. Budhi Hendarto. It was amazing. I hope I can do business for Indonesia's future. Mr. Budhi is a great motivator. I hope also 2 years later, we can go to abroad together... Hoho. Thanks to Bimo (my college's friends) for recommending me to attend this Djarum Beswan's event (Djarum Beswan is a scholarship program from Indonesian's cigarret company).

Thursday: I spent time with my best friends, Adu and Ayus. Fortunately, I and Adu met Ayus after she did her worship (Umroh). We ate at D'cost and do karaoke at Inul Vista. I just wanted to refresh my mind because my brain was full of problems... Eventhough I did my refreshing, I couldn't forget my problems with Yudi. But, he never understood it, he always think negative.

Friday (Today): I went to campus to take my prize, but there was no people at Mawa. Hiks.. Whereas I needed that money to do my business. But, today I started again my little bisnis, selling pulse. And I hope it can survive, and give me much benefit. And this evening I spent my time with Ebik (my best friends also) at Kopitiam. And then, we invited Bengawaners, but only Hasan that came.

And now, online and continue thinking him... Why we always hurt each other? Is it possible to continue our relationship?

Can we choose between boyfriend with friends????

I really don't know what must I do.

I love him. He knows it. He loves me. I know it.

But, love is not everything.

We almost ended our relationship. But, we always try to make it right again. How hard our efforts, we always have same problems.

He always gets angry when I have activities with my friends. The poin is he always thinks that I choose my friends than him.

I really don't know....

Why he always hate my life?????

I think friends and him are not something to choose... They must be mixed...

Waiting, waiting, waiting, I hate you...... (Post for 21/07/2010))

Hoa.... My schedule today's collected my proposal to my lecturer... Huhm... I arrived at campus earlier.... Huhm, I made appointment with lecturer at 10.

Campus was crowded, but not many people that I know well... I're waiting like crazy person. Just looking arround, read so many announcement.

10 a.m.... The lecturer wasn't at room...

11 a.m.... The lecturer wasn't at room...

Oh... Fortunately, I found friend to talk... Not long afterthat, my waiting was ended.

The lecturer came. Oh no... My waiting was longer because I got a job from lecturer..

The job was meeting the head of accounting department. It was 11.30 a.m.
When I came to his room, the head of accounting was not there. He was to be a scorer in thesis test. Oh my God, how's long the thesis test??????

The answer was 2,5 hour. Yeah, I finally met him at 2 p.m... And too many people were waiting him in front of his room.

Oh my God, why waiting is so sucks. I hate you, waiting.

PLEASE... CONTROL YOUR SPEED!!!

Today... There was an accident in front of CIMB (Manahan Branch)... And it was the third accident that I could see the process... Oh my God...

My first time was an accident in front of SOLOPOS... At that night, there was a car that suddenly stopped, but not in the right place... When the driver would park in the right place, he didn't look arround... He moved back his car. But, the motorcycle rider behind it, couldn't control his speed to avoid hit the car... Yeah, accident finally happened. The motorcycle was a matic one.

My second time was an accident in front of Agriculture Faculty in Sebelas Maret University. Two girls with matic motorcycle tried to cross from Agriculture Faculty. But, the two girls were talking each other, so they couldn't focus arround them... The driver foolished to cross even there was other motorcycle in that way... And accident couldn't be avoidence.

My third time was an ccident in front of CIMB like I said before. When I saw the Vixion, I thought that the boy was crazy because of he used high speed in his ride. And not far I saw him, he have got an accident with matic motorcycle. Oh my God, the rider of Vixion groaned his pain because his leg was broke. I thought maybe it's his false also, because he couldn't control his speed.

All the stories above, learn us to ride based on our ability to control our speed... So, we don't hurt ourself and others...

Shocking Day

Today's shocking day....

Hohoho... Why???? Because too many bad and good news was came...

What will you want listen first???? Bad news or good news????

I prefer to share about good news.

Hohoho... My first good news: my lovely boy will come tomorrow... Horray! I really miss him although only two days we didn't meet. I'm not patient to meet him.

My second news: i still don't believe my best friend (P) will be married by her boy in January... Waw... I'm happy for them. But, I still want to know how it happens so fast...

My third news: i've got a prize from my faculty because I become third winner in achievement student competition (in Indonesia called MAWAPRES). hohoho. it's out of my expectation. But, Alhamdulillah.... I'll be happier if I get first winner. But, maybe I can go abroad by other way (AMIEN...)

My forth news: others my best friend (Isebel Sara Sade Adu) and Voca Erudita (Sebelas Maret University's choir) have gotten a gold medal and champions in some categories in World Choir Games that held in Shaoxing, China. I miss you sist!!!! Congratulation also sist!

And my bad news...

I don't have any idea to revise my proposal for my minithesis!!!!!!! The deathline is July 21, 2010. It means two more days. Oh my God.... Help!!!!!!

My cousin (Mutia Khairu Nisa) got accident and she must be come in operating room... Oh my God... Is it means my nightmare yesterday is a signal???? I hope no... But, get well soon sist!

And I hope it's my last bad news...

My sister (Inten Dwi Ratnaningsih) got sick also. She has a headeaches, fever, and so on.... Is it because of drinking a root beer??? Oh.... I'm sorry sist! But, get well soon sist!

Family Shopping (Post for 18/07/2010)

Hoahmmm... Sunday... Sunday... Sunday..

Waw I did't get up earlier, and I missed my time for jogging... Hohoho... But, it's okay. Because I had family shopping. Huhmmm... So nice...

Beteng Trade Center and Pusat Grosir SOLO was our destination...

We were looking for Batik.

My dad and I did't find our Batik, because there wasn't in our favourite... We looked for the real Batik SOLO. But, in BTC and PGS was dominated with others batik, like Batik Pekalongan.

Why??? It's SOLO, right???? How could we difficult to find the real Batik SOLO in that place????

Is it mean that we must go the big showroom batik?????

Waw... It means that we must save our money first before we buy there? Oh no....

Hoahmmm... Date in Saturday Morning... (Post for 17/07/2010)

Hoahmmm... I have just remembered that 2,8 years with him, I never had date in saturday night... Hohohoho... But, I'm happy, I can have a date with him until now...

He always come to Solo at Saturday. I was very happy, because I could see his face and I could feel his breath... But, I'm affraid if he always push his body to come here, it can make him worst. I don't want...

OH.... I don't want think negative...

Date in Saturday Morning is okay, right????? Because we have longer time to spend our weekend and to have a romantic dating. Hohohoho...

Miss you so much My Yudi....

Unlogical Reality Show (Post for 16/07/2010)

Today, Indonesia has so many reality shows... Hoaahmmm... We can choose based on our favourite. If you interest in singing, you can watch II. Or if you interest in many talent pure from Indonesia, you can watch IMB.

But yesterday, I found a reality show on channel 5 in my television... Hohoho. The UHF is after television station that has legal problem...

Talk about this reality show... I think it is unlogical reality show... In Indonesia teenager's languange, it's called "gggggaaaakkk banget"...

This reality show always makes its contestant to be ambisious and must do anything to get all they want... And the game in that show is strange. Wkwkwkwkw... I still has question, "what kind of ability that will be competed?" It is unclear...

And when I talked about it to my lovely boy (Rahmat Yudi Wibowo), he finally agreed with me. hohohoho.

This reality show is unlogical and "gggggaaaakkk banget"....

The initial of reality show is PT.

BLACK, WHITE, AND GRAY

Hoahm... The power of black and white is strong... But, black and white can be mixed to gray... Gray is amazing color... Black and white can be together made something's new. Something's useful, because gray gives its contribution in type of color...

The other things that have a strong power are water and oil. The differences is water and oil being enemies each other... Water and oil can't be mixed ever. Water and oil are so egois...

I hope me and him can be gray... Although black and white have their egoism, but they also can be together, peaceful... Is it posibble to me and him?

We have a contrast world... But, we have love. I know love is not everything. Day by day, our love is stronger. But the other side, our contrast world is so real. Fighthing is something that we have made. Does it mean that we are water and oil?

We always try to solve, but it's never ending...

I love him... I'll always try to accept his world, included his self... But, he never recognize... I don't know how way to explain???

I'm still want to can be gray with him...

What's Next???

This morning, I had got my report for my course this semester... Alhamdulilah, my efforts was paid... Then, I have question : "what's next?"...

I'm affraid of tomorrow... I'm affraid that I can't make my family happy, especially my parent. Hoahmm... They have a target that I must reach... Oh my God, can I realized it?????

I just need your support, guys! I can't do anything without you!

My friend's beloved mother (friend - dito) was gone forever today... And I'm not ready to be like that... And it makes me realized that I have just a little time to make our beloved happy. We never know when we and they will gone... So, we must try and pray for happiness.

God, help me to make my life more useful, not only for me, but also for other people arround...

Welcome to My New Blog

Hoahm....

Finally, I have created my new blog... Hope I can write well and give you much informations...

I'll try to write everyday (minimum). Although I'm not sure of that because of my laziness. But I'll try my best...

Let's start and welcome!